Monday, June 20, 2005

tak boleh tahan!!

juz back from Belumut... supposedly the 2nd training trek for tahan... 4 ppl went... the 1st, Lambak, only 2 went...me and yan... and yan isn't even gg to Tahan....

the 1st training was hike in the nature reserve of Singapore... 5 went... including yan... so u can se....fewer and fewer ppl r getting involved in this trek le.... why huh... is it the anticipation for the trek that brings down the initial enthusiasm..? or is it the preparation tat we need to do b4 that trek tat we finding a drag....? or juz procrastination of preparation, which we thought we will obediently do...but nv realli set down to do it? end up, abandon a proj which u thought u haf time to finish, but u hadn't?

we're down to 7 now... from the initial projection of 12....to 8....to.6....and now...7

but u know wad...? juz now Bao told me he thinking maybe he might draw out... coz he missed out lots of job opportunities and also coz he's been missing out on trainings.... jess sent out an email saying that she worries tat she might become burden to the trek team coz of unconditioned body from exams.....

ICT starts later (6 hr from now) and stores for tahan (6 days from now) hadn't been drawn yet, but was predicted.... i've sent out an email some time ago mentioning tat i might haf to get someone else to help me collect the stores from Odac... however not one reply... actully i wasn't expection a reply... it wasn't a "question" email...it's an "inform" email... juz now sms chel in attempt to arrange this store drawing.. but i already knew in the 1st place tat i shldn't haf asked her...i knew she won't like it... i dun realli wanna ask her wad's she's bz with... coz it's realli none of my business... and i trust and agree that she has her own things to do and it's unfair that she's ("we" actualli... but im not too sure how she feels abt wad i've done la.. maybe it's nothin compared to wad she's contributed, i also dunno...) haf been doing most of the things...and i also understand that coz of tahan preparation, she cant proceed on to find her job properly... of course she's frustrated...

but wad i trying to get to...is that.. in the 1st place when anyone decided to commit into anything.... be it trek, holiday trip, competition, work, play, tour.... u haf to be prepared to make other sacrifices rite? and once u commit into it...why complain? no one force u to join in the first place rite? all those wasn't in the expectations?

but well...i know no one is perfect... not everyone can anticipate something to happen and able to accept it happening... isn't ppl always like tat? im one for example... (refering to previous post) i knew tat it's difficult for me to find work this hol coz of lots of suah suah commitments... here and there... but im still bothered by the fact tat i cant find a suitable job! and even when someone do offer me a job, i'll use back tat same reasons to decline it...

anyway she's set to do only 1 of the 2 errands, either to draw stores or to buy train tickets... so for now i think i'll draw the stores myself...after ICT...juz 1 day b4 the trip...and i'll bring everything on the 26th lor... lamps, stoves, canisters, canvas sheets, tents, ropes, 1st aid kits, messtins, etc etc....

wtf...