tired

longing for a real break, a break, away from EVERYTHING...

that tad bit of soreness which wont go away..

I've been working myself silly, very hard these few months.. I'm trying to make my effort be seen.. and hopefully be acknowledged.

For 2 occasions I felt that I've been neglected at work. First was that 2 of my immediate colleagues were nominated for, and received the "Exceptional Science Award".. It's not that they were undeserving, but I felt that I contributed significantly to a particular work of one which i think landed her the award. I was the one that got that stroke of brilliance and suggested to her to take a different interpretation of that data.. That presentation made everything made sense.. I dun think she purposely discredited me, and I dun even think she gave any thought abt what did she actually do which got her nominated, i guess she presented that data, and people are happy with it.. Well to be fair, she did all the work, all I did was suggest.

The second was that a pay adjustment move didn't include me, the rest of my team were. 

these feelings were there a couple of months back, i've since convinced myself that my time will come, and that i am blessed to be able to learn much at this job, and to study while i work too.. im also blessed in more ways than one, i've got a life (ok some life, not so much now), close friends, good personal relationship with most colleagues, good opportunity at work, have a lovely wife and 2 adorable daughters..

but i hope, my time will come, soon.