guilt

cant really remember when did i last had an entry without talking abt Janielle... hehe...
some random stuffs... dun mind me if my sentences or sequence dun make sense k?

last evening a colleague left work earlier than me, a while after she left she sent me n sms, saying that she saw an accident... she didn't really see the accident, but she did see a cyclist with a bloody arm.... apparently part of the flesh got "ripped" off by a passing taxi... she was totally traumatized by the sight.. she then mentioned that only after she'd long passed the scene then she remembered she's a trained 1st aider, she shld'd helped... wad she said struck a thought in me.. ppl in general (or at least in Singapore?) holds back on lending a helping hand... ok in this case it's not just a "helping hand", u need to "get dirty" and know how to do a proper dressing and muz know what to do etc etc... i've always been a trained 1st aider too, since the uni days.. but im guilty myself of offering help like this, especially in a public place, to strangers... yes i've administered 1st aid in sch event before.. simple dressings... eye injuries... the most serious case would be the time when we went for a cycling trip to mt ophir... a companion of ours had a very bad fall and sustained a very big and deep cut in the knee..a couple of us help with his injury till he got back to singapore for proper stitching... however i did have an occasion which i was guilty till today... no harm was done though.. we were at a macdonald's and a kid was playing under a table, he hit his head on the bottom of the table and there's quite a lot of blood... also dunno if it's because i was much younger then or wad... i was very held back, i din really know wad to do... luckily another friend of ours, who's been known to be very proactive went to get some serviette from the counter and tried to stop the bleeding on his head.. all was well...

all these are juz 1st aid related... im trying to step out of my own comfort zone to help, in general, whenever i can.. to anyone in need... give me some time ya?

still on 1st aid, i think it's always better to haf to knowledge of wad to do, then to come to a situation when u really need to do something, but u dunno wad to do...

took a day off today.. trying to clear my leave actally.. so used the day to clear off some errands which i've been putting off... settled cable tv stuff at home, cleaned my bike, got its spoke fixed and i went for a short ride!! been 5 mth since i last rode!! my thighs are achy now... i feel guility for neglecting my loyal iron-mount....