i lost a fren...

LTT says: eh i was quite fond of him one leh
LTT says: until one day he turned up in front of me in a whilte long sleeved shirt and black pants
LTT says: and white crocs
LTT says: and black socks, can see from the holes in the crocs
LTT says: i wanna faint
LTT says: if mark wears that to meet me, i will leave him lor
LTT says: freaking fugly can
juzride says: not even black color?
juzride: says: those without holes one?
LTT says: WHITE CROCS. WITH HOLES. THE NORMAL STANDARD UGLY CROCS.
LTT says: ANY CROCS = UGLY
juzride: says: haha!! heng i wear fake crocs in the office
LTT says: EEEE
LTT says: y u wanna do such a thing!
LTT says: i dunwanna be ur fren anymore!


and i lost a friend..... =(

week ins, week outs

seems to be noting how times goes by by the weeks these days... the weekdays will juz flow by...and when the weekend finally comes, it passed along juz as fast! i tot it was juz xmas....! but the 1st mth of 2007 is gone!! u get wad i mean??

so.... why r we looking fwd to the weekends huh... i mean u waited 5 days for it... but it juz went by in a glimpse! (it always feel like juz 1 day instead of 2.... i feel cheated....)

Everything over the weekend, But the brain

was back at work this morning and the 1st thing i said to my cubicle mate was "the weekend passed by real fast hor?" usually ppl will reply "yar lor.." but she said "then does that mean u were very bz in the weekend?"

actually ok la... not very bz... but it's not exactly very empty... had an appt with Fairy's Inc. to look at some ideas for our wedding bands... roughly we haf some ideas wad to play ard with with the designs le... but i cant make up my mind if we shld juz stick to simple plain ones... which can be quite "meaningless"... anyway still in progress la... Rose gold... Rhodium plating... engrave/emboss...

as mentioned in earlier post, we had a ceremony over Sunday for my grandma's 1st yr death anniversary... my house was packed!! the kids (us) were all hiding in my room.. 2 cousins, my bro, yb and myself... lotsa food coz my mum over-prepared... we burned a "villa" for my grandma and ancestors... quite shiok hor? villa leh! the best thing is she no need to clean it de... it comes with servants and housekeepers! even trishaw! and we burnt a car with chaffuer to her a yr ago too!

anyway sunday night we were the esplanade watching this local production called "Everything but the brain". It's quite funny at the thought that im doing neuroscience work and the show i watched "didn't wanna talk anything abt the brain" at all... anyway weird title huh...

Physics, Relativity, Train, Malacca, Time, Aging, Father-Daughter, Daughter-Father... u find out the link.

my ah ma

my ahma's death anniversary is juz round the corner going by the lunar calendar.. memories of her is not at all vague.. not yet... i've spent far too much of my lifetime with her ard to forget her so fast... i dare say she was ard for more than 80% of my childhood days... when i was 1st borned... till when i come into secondary sch... been thinking of her more these few days... dunno whether it's becoz her annivesary is coming? or juz that it's coming so i feel that i think abt her more?

anyways... i was imagining how she'd passed on that day a yr ago... i wasn't there actually... only my dad and the maid then were there by her side... my bro was at the foodcourt having lunch... actualli after that bro kinda feel very bad that he's at lunch... was even slightly blaming himself for buying extra big serving... but i told him later that in a way i was glad that we were not ard then... coz i think it'll haf been very diff for us to let her go when she's leaving.. dun think she'll be able to pass on peacefully if we were there holding on... luckily my dad was ard... he was at least composed enough to not hold on.. even speaking softly by her ears sending her off gently and reminding her to go look for my ah gong..

when i was informed of the news i left work str away to the hospital.. was tearing quietly in the cab on the way.. remember it was a rainy day that day... (i left my umbrella in the hospital that day i rem..) when i got there she was gone... i mean she's there physically... but spiritually she's gone... the body is still slightly warm thou...

i feel bad actually... that when she was ard.. she was staying at my place... but she was in bed most of the time coz she got stroke abt 9 yrs back... most of the time i was either in the army.. or sch hostel.. or juz not at home... even when im at home i dun talk to her much.. im not good with chatting... but on and off i'll still go into her room and hang ard for a while.. telling her im home... asking if she's eaten... not so much to chat... being optimistic, i told myself that god/buddha/some more-superior-being up there is being kind to me.. to allow me to take care and be by her side for the last few days when she's still alive...

she was hospitalised for pneumonia... some complications of stroke patients... we were told that she might not be able to make it thru that night.. i remembered her holding on very tightly to our hands.. i was quite surprised with the strength of her grip... i stayed over with my cousin and my bro.. she made it thru... in fact she was showing some progress... thou very weak, she told us that she's hungry! so we were quite eager to get her to be fed... some difficulties met with regards to hospital communications... but that was solved by yb.. so it was gd.. and we managed to get her to haf some milk.. thru a tube passing thru her nose.. she cant feel herself being fed coz it's not thru her mouth... so she was actually tearing/crying... perhaps feeling sad for herself... but we did wad we can... she got more better the 3rd day in hospital... was requesting us to let her sit up on her bed coz she wants to look ard... we gladly did... it looks like she was doing fine... but she left the next day... the only day which we weren't ard on Monday...

these few days we've been at home folding bags and bags of josspapers in preparation for her death anniversary... apparently it's quite a big affair huh... mayb some time this weekend i shld go down to where her remains are kept to pay her a visit....

Borneo...

yes after 4 yrs im back at Sabah to climb Mt Kinabalu again....
was having dinner a friend the other day.. apparently he climbed the mt b4... when we mentioned "爬到要死".. he said "ya lor!! 真的会爬死人的!!"

so why am i back there again? mainly coz yb haven't been there yet and i dun think we'll actually haf a high chance of going there again bah... this time round juz happened that my colleague and a few of her friends will be going and the rented vehicle can take in 2 more ppl.... so... why not?? juz go lor!!











our van!!


we were there in Sabah for 6 days.. 30th Dec to 4th Jan.. 1st 3 days were spent acclimatising and getting our food supplies and exploring the area for food and juz driving ard... it was nice juz cruising ard and looking enjoying the nice sceneries.... we even counted doen to 2007 with a bottle of red wine!! complimentary fr Donna...












acclimatising!~


we began our ascend on the 2nd of Jan, round abt 8am.... we took the Mesilau trail which is abt 5 km longer than the other one... though longer, but more scenic and with more variations in the climb... we'll be taking the shorter one down... so i'l explain later in a while....














some pics taken along the Mesilau Trail... very scenic!














































this is a very bold squirrel lor... it juz came out searching for food when we were walking pass... cant blame it also la... coz the trail is so over-utilised by human.. they got used to human's intervention le... and the shelter there was so badly littered... but probably also coz of animals ravaging thru the garbage bins la... it din actually come and feed on the bread and biscuit crumps we offered on hand, but snatched and go... i held on tight to take a good picture... hehe...

we managed to catch lunch juz b4 the junction that joins Timpohon trail... cooked instant mee!! i think we're the only ones cooking in this trek... everyone else survives on chocolate and energy bars... from here it's another 3 hours to Laban Rata...

(pic of Laban Rata coming up soon!)

Rested a while (from 7pm till 1am) at Laban rata b4 continuing our trek up to the summit... took a shower... the water damn cold can!! we were already freezing le still gathered all courage we had and fast fwd thru out cold shower!! "Air Panas" had already "habis" by the time we start moving into the showers... cant slp very well leh.... 1stly, it's weird timing to slp... 7pm.... 2ndly, the heater makes the room damn hot to slp in lor.... i need to climb out of bed to switch it off and opened the door to let some cold air in... 3rdly, my body is badly acclimatising.. my heart beats damn fast for every small movement i made... like.. tossing in bed... so having a bit of headache also...

we woke up (got up) at 1am to start our preparation... packing... cooking... etc etc... set off at abt 2am... we were actually one of the 1st few to be on the trail towards summit.. but as usual... we took it at a more relaxing pace... so allowing others to overtake us... this time round it seems like im not as motivated to climb as compared to the last time i came... i feel tired..mentally... felt like juz taking extended rest every time we stopped a while to take a breather... old le?

by the time we reached the summit, it was kinda overcrowded there.. not as good as the last time i was here.. and it was very very cloudy... din really catch the sunrise... but we did see some glimpse of the morning sunshine.... nice.... hehe... actually we were like abt 2m short from the summit... but it's very crowded up there!! and our folks were on the way down le...

at the peak